Thursday, 25 April 2013

Being a Mama is beautiful

Last week I was showered with kindness and two different awards. One of them is the Beautiful Mama Blog Award which was bestowed upon my by one of my best blogging friends, Kerri at Undiagnosed, but okay. She wrote a beautiful post about motherhood and you should totally check it out. Thank you so much for the award, my beautiful friend!

For a long time I was not sure if I even wanted kids. I was never that woman who felt from an early age that she was meant to be a mother. At one point I even saw it totally rationally and thought that I probably needed to have kids because I might otherwise regret it later.

Then, all of a sudden, that changed. I do not know why or what it sparked but suddenly I felt it: I definitely wanted to be a mama. I wanted to have a baby and could not wait until it happened.

And as soon as my son entered my life everything changed. I always like to say that motherhood opened a new door in my life. It was a door that I never knew even existed and that was hidden from my view. But with the birth of my son it opened widely and as I stepped inside I entered a world of new feelings, vibrant colours and a kind of love that I never could have imagined was possible. Feelings you cannot describe nor imagine until you feel them yourself. I know it probably sounds totally drippy but it is just the way I feel about motherhood.

Having a child with special needs has taken my motherhood experience to a whole new level. I know that all parents worry about their children but I believe a lot of us worry more and this for obviously founded reasons. A lot of our kids have health issues to be dealt with or they get suspected diagnoses that scare the hell out of us until they (hopefully, finally) are being ruled out or, even worse, are confirmed.

These experiences very often shift the focus from a typical motherhood experience to another one. And as much as I am naturally well aware of the hardships in our lives in my case it has also made me much more aware of the good things in our life. I do not take things for granted any more. I am much more compassionate, not only when it comes to our own lives but also with regard to things that happen to my friends or even strangers. It has made me more vulnerable and at the same time much stronger. Very often it makes me pause in my tracks and tells me to just take it all in and live in the moment, right now and here. To witness the sun reflecting from Sunny's silky, shining hair, to hear his bell-like laughter full of happiness that makes my stomach cringe for a second with sheer joy. To realise the way he looks at me, how he calls my name and tells me with no words how much he loves and needs me. To feel his tiny, soft hand slip into mine while we walk next to each other and know that he senses the security I will always offer him, that I am his safe haven to always turn to. To be glad and thankful that we had a good winter with very few infections. 

Being a mother is the most life-changing and beautiful experience in my world and I never could have imagined it would be so good and so fulfilling and so full of love. And I know for sure now that what I rationally thought back in my 20's was totally true: I would have missed out on so many things and regretted it if Sunny never entered my life.

You think this is a cheesy post? Well, maybe it is. In this case let me tell you one more thing: I guess motherhood has also made me cheesy because these words were just written directly from my heart.

I would now like to nominate some other beautiful women for a Beautiful Mama Blog Award and these are:

Alana at Lightly Salted
Lana at Along Came The Bird
Tatum at Ain't No Roller Coaster
Misty at Meet the Cottons
Kristi at Finding Ninee

But all the mamas I know are beautiful and I would just love to nominate all of you! xo

If you want to stick to the rules of the Beautiful Mama Award, here they are:

1) Click the above award image, save it and use it in your acceptance post.
2) List three things you love about motherhood.
3) Nominate other deserving mamas; you may choose as many as you like.

PS: I will be leaving for a prolonged weekend today in order to attend my nephew's confirmation on Sunday so I might be a bit slow to answer comments but I hope to find some time during the weekend to come back. Have a wonderful weekend, everyone!


  1. You totally deserve the award, beautiful friend!

    1. I agree with Kerri, Joy. Beautiful post. And I get what you were saying. I never grew up with this deep heartfelt desire to be a mom. I just figured I would one day because that's what adults did. :) I'm so in love with my kids. Can you imagine life without them?

    2. Thank you Kerri, once again!

      And Alana, you are so right: I could not imagine my life without my son anymore!!

  2. So beautifully written... I can relate with your story of the birth of your first child. :)

    1. Thank you for stopping by, Alicia, and for your beautiful comment!

  3. Joy,
    I think this is an absolutely amazingly beautiful post and not cheesy at all. Also, I agree with you that motherhood opens doors to brand new beautiful worlds and that having a child with special needs brings its own set of new worries that we didn't expect to have when our little ones were brand new, or still inside our bellies.

    Thank you so much for passing the award to me. I am honored and humbled and will never write something as awesome as this to accept it!

    Hugs, friend of mine. You are a beautiful mama.

    PS - I'm so very sorry that it took me a couple days to get here - I am working a lot this week and we're having a community yard sale to raise money for Tucker's preschool class to get an iPad with speech apps on it. Next year I will just buy the iPad because this is taking way too much time!!

    1. Thank you so much for your beautiful comment, Kristi! I am sure you will write a beautiful post, too! Can't wait to read it! And sorry for taking so much time to answer all the comments... :-(

  4. What a lovely, lovely post, Joy. Kids just do something to our hearts, don't they?

    And thank you so much for the award and for thinking of me. :)

    1. You're welcome, Lana! Kids are the best thing ever! <3

  5. Thanks for the nomination!! HEre's my post.


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