I know that some/many/a lot of parents ask themselves questions like "Why me? My life would be perfect if only my child were "normal". Why did this happen to me?"
I never had these thoughts and sometimes I wonder why.
Maybe it is because my outlook on life is mainly optimistic. Maybe because I try not to be consumed with negative thoughts because, in my opinion, they do not bring me forward. They do not help me in any way. Why should I even think the "why me?"-question? There is no point in thinking about that. I want to grow as I travel down this road and "why me?" only keeps me from traveling or slows me down.
Apart from that, when I hear someone pose this question, I think to myself "well, why not me? What makes me stand out of other people? Why should it happen to anyone else and NOT me? Am I special in any way? I am a person like anyone else is." Life is not always fair and bad things happen to good people. So, why should it not be me? These questions do not lead me anywhere.
I prefer to think positive. To be happy about how far we have come. To notice progress, even the tiniest, acknowledge and appreciate it. To marvel at Sunny's beautiful face, his silky hair, his milky skin, his laughter and kind personality. I prefer to think about how lucky I am to be his mama. I prefer to love my life the way it is. I prefer to enjoy a glass that is half full.